LOnElY #8

regretted..life's lyk sh!t

2009-05-31T00:34:00.003+08:00

my first quarrel with u i felt so regretted yet so stressful..i didnt mean to get angry with u..but when i did u dunno how pain it feels in there and many of ur frenz came questioning me asking y i vent my anger on u..saying tt i alwaes let u down..saying tt u gave in to me alot n i didnt do anything..theres even comment on tt ur fren would rather ask u to break with me den continue..saying tt not as if u cant find any better den me...its our first time quarreling i believe but they have said till as if i have been torturing u and treating u badly..i cant believe wad i have heard by some of ur frenz as their comments really bother me..many of them jus concern tt i vent my anger on u..does any1 care y i got angry and i vent my anger? does any1 care if i vent it on purpose or did i vent it coz i wanted to..did i really didnt gave in and u gave into me alot? did i alwaes did the wrong thing and u have tolerate me for very long? did i alwaes let u down?..since i'm such a fcked up bf..do i really suit to be ur bf? as ur frenz have said tt there are better 1 out there for u...i'm so stressed up but hu cares?..

post...

2009-05-28T22:21:00.002+08:00

long time since i post eh? hahas my wife have been complaining n asked me to post hahas so here i'm am hahas..this week have been normal for sch..yesterdae had hardcore gymming with shahrin ayton and myself went to acc gym early morning as sch start late at 11 so we finish our gym at 10 rest for 30 mins and off we go to sch..reach sch oso did nothing as mr goh didnt come to sch so we had our 2nd gym session as it is pe 'o' levels and we had practical todae so gym again in sch but more of slacking..after tt went to library to slack as another 15 mins jiu release sch liao..so we went out of sch at 12.35 sad for those sec 2 n 3 they had prefect investiture so they had to stay till 1 plus..so went out to slack with same click after tt went to find my baby at kfc den send her to bus stop and went home had a slp and reach kumar's condo at 6.20 to swim..finish swimming at abt 7 went to slack awhile den off to acc to play bball again reach tehre at 8.30 ba den play with some gl guys hahas in the end got owned by 2 andrews HAHAS!! they bo bian walk out of the court hahas^^ so after bballing went home..as for todae , i didnt go to sch..was too tired so i gave sch a missed..todae actually nth much..whole dae stayed at home..can sae sleep for almost the whole dae..anyway just finished my dinner hehe^^ bibi mus eat more arh^^ haahs

Awfully Difficult..

2009-05-03T01:32:00.004+08:00

yesterdae went out secretly to whye nam's basketball club training/selection..to my surprised i was selected but here's the problem...last time wanna join the club till i could die for it..but skill wise wasnt good enough to join...now i could but problems arise..due to N level and pressure frm my mother and how relectunt to let me even play bball nearby house not to mention whye name's training at yishun on mon n wed and at jurong on fri...usually would reach home around 11 plus if i go for the trainings..they club are aware of the up coming mid year examinations n N level examination so they scle down to training onli on fridae but i dunno how long tt would last...if i promise my mother tt i will study on mondae till thursdae and allow me to onli play bball on fridae n saturdae will she allow it? i really really wanna join the club..play big n earn a name for myself..hopefully oso got into the national team..tt alwaes had been my dream..i really really wish tt would come true for me..mayb i would talk to her abt this tomolo...chance are very slim though but its really really my dream and i already accept the coach invitation and got into the team already...it's really really a diff choice for me to choose..either way would leave me feeling regretful...hu understands me?? hu would be there for me and listen to my trouble's n sorrows?..as i alwaes had mention..bball is part of my world..if theres a chance for me to excel in it..i would definately go for it but now..

it seems unsure...

played with foreign players..damn i'm loving it..

2009-04-29T23:48:00.005+08:00

sick n tired of not able to be with u..lets get down together n show me
some love...

hmm todae almost late hahas woke up at 10.20 leave home at 10.40..sch was so-so..same old thing la jus study all this lor..den after sch went to 104 slack..was fcking tired coz slept at 2 the night b4 so reach there when they are slacking i was lying on the table sleeping till 4.30 if i'm not wrong hahas...i was lying on kumar's bag den when i woke up there is this mark of his bag strap den he started " eh cool sia!! come i help u draw angkong"..-.-lll so let him draw lor was kinda stupid la hahas but brother ma so let him draw la lols..didnt have the photo if i got it will upload it again lo hahasso later kylin and how bunch of dunno hu la came along..was tired la so went home rest awhile den started off my air alert..currently on week2 session 2..after the workout wait for jianwei come my house cut hair..cut till abit short la den he sae next time tell him den he keep the length...hmm i think the next time mayb next month or something?? hahas after tt went to acc played bball think todae was the best game ever in acc...played with some mid 30s uncle can see tt they used to play bball..they damn strong and fast on their hands..they will intercept the ball everytime i tried to lay up so i gotta to be faster den them not to forget other 2 players..1 frm philipines another frm a mixed of france n vietnam tell u wad..the mixed players was damn fcking sharp on his shooting..even when i fly towards him the ball would jus sink into the basket den the philipine player is more of a defensive player..he is around 3 or 4 cm shorter den me but he can fcking reject my shot!!!!!!!!!!!! or even lay up!!!!!!! but not all the time though mayb 2 out of 10 times...mus same some face for myself ma HEHE^^V..but overall i manage to find ways to score but was kinda diff..but i admit it was a good game..wished to play with more of foreign players..they are really good..ohya my jumping seems to increase liao n my jumpshot is getting smoother n start to sink into the basket tts a good sign^^...but still mus be more consistant..sometimes will slip out of hands..really happy to play with them dunno how to describe even they are abit aggressive but i was smiling while playing la they were smiling too..tts the kind of basketball i wanna play..aggressive yet friendly hope there's still chance to see them hehe^^...so went home after tt jus finish my supper or dinner?? i dunno hahas i'm jus hungry so i ate a bowl of rice hahas..tts all of it a post be i slp hehe nitez all...

love you jus lyk i love bball...

2009-04-28T22:31:00.003+08:00

so let see todae woke up 6.30 felling damn awake coz i slept at 10.30 the night b4 lols..went to sch lessons were so-so todae recess need to find a spot oso waaste so much time lols but in the end still got a spot la..after tt went back class while having lit half way chirs's gf told us bryan got whack for some reason..dun think its nice to sae la lols so after sch had a light lunch in sch den went out to slack with the saem clique played a game damn nice during slacking..somehow found a small soccer ball and this is how the game goes...open numbers the 1 who kena face the wall and all of us kick the ball if he's lucky den he wont got hit laa...but for e.g chris is a exceptional 1 being so "lucky" got headshot twice lols!!! after tt mr wee came saying tt ppl complain tt we are making a fuse around the black and disturbing others ask us to leave but in the end we still came back and slack went to rp to find gf do abit of math with her den slack till around 5 she had to leave so sent her to busstop n i went back to block to slack with frenz..but lyk after 10 mins i oso leave n go home le..reach home start my air alert training currently on week2 session 1 lyk damn shag sia legs will wobble lyk siao lo hope tt i have the determination to complete the whole training which is 15 weeks-.-lll around 3 months n 3weeks la by the time i think N level start liao..have been training hard on ball both skill n physically..hope i will go back training with a different me stronger and more skilled too...somehow this photo gives me a special kind of feeling and i 'm loving it hahas nice right!?!? hehe^^v Bball is half of my life..u are the other half..without u
or bball..it doesnt feel right anymore..i love YOU..
So love me too..

Life On 26th April 2009...

2009-04-26T23:43:00.003+08:00

yoyoyo waddup dawgs how ya'll doin man hahas..todae was damn tired man coz slpet at morning 6 and i woke up at 2 when cousin was jus nice reach my house for piano lesson..damn seh couldnt read the notes properly but after was so-so la refresh abit after some ribena hahs! actually intended to go gym with cousin after lesson but he's not driving + its raining + i'm damn tired so didnt go in the end..slack at home den yc came over played saintrows2 hmm...not tt nice leh mayb i am not used to tt game lor cousin saes it's crazy hahas diff ppl diff taste mayb? hahs..after tt slack at home den go play bball with yc..finally get a liiiiiiiiiiiiiiiittle bit of touch of jump shooting jus a little..hahas no was there to play bball so onli me n yc play..kinda lyk self training hahas den after tt jiu come home lo bibi ask me watch okto channel army daze watched b4 already but still nice to watch again coz it's FUNNY!! hahas.
seriously need to study now...guess i will start to stay back after sch to ask teachers to teach me on subs tt i didnt do well..tomolo had chi oral..dun even noe i can read the chi words anot..my chi really sucks now used to score at least a B now i'm getting a U..wtf right? nvm la believe in myself and work harder..i will strive hard for mid year and my final goal Nlevel below 11 points is my target hope it is'nt jus a dream for me ahahs^^

Waiting for your,Call I'm sick,Call I'm angry,Coz I'm desperate for your voice

2009-04-26T04:20:00.002+08:00

finally i changed into a new blogskin which is up-to-date hahas kinda lyk it^^ its now 4.21 am sia..make this blog till so long haahs...anyway todae time pass very quickly though..woke up around 2 plus..made scramble egg yc came and made more scramble egg~ HAHA..so slack awhile at home mum reached home finish my lunch cycle to grandma house..^^ went there for revision with yc studied abit of math n physic..hmm something interesting happen at grandma house though hehe=x promised not to say out hahas!!! BUT IF U HAPPEN TO VIEW MY BLOG..U NOE WAD I MEAN EH HAHAS!!!^^finished studying at around 7 plus..went to punggol park with kumar bryan jin hui erwin zhi hui steward dominik yc for drinking..finished drinking at around 10 plus..was fxcking seh luh~..cycle to opposite block to eat den cycle home..cant cycle properly ahhas!!! but still manage to get home safely^^ reach home liao bath feeling more refresh not tt seh liao..jie fu came back home dao bao food for us so i ate after tt watch channel 8 de ghost movie..tt wasnt very scary la..loving ghost story hah...

n sorry for venting my anger on u jus now if u feel so...i didnt mean it..u noe i love u..

2009-04-18T23:04:00.002+08:00

somehow i feel tt bball is improving but tts not enough..gotta imrpove more..lost my bike de lock tio gan by mother...reach home her fren was there but didnt care abt me continue gan..aiya i oso dun care le la..i oso no face liao she wan make me lose more face oso nvm la...study study study..gotta study...got back recent test de marks...english -c5 chi-u math-a1(o.O) sci-u art b4...if my mid year lyk tt i think i die...
END OF THIS FCKING POST!

2009-04-16T00:12:00.002+08:00

guys who noe me long enough noes tt i have a high expectation on my game..mayb i am not tt good..but i alwaes never lived up to tt expectation..no matter how hard i train i alwaes seems to not improved..i somehow got demotivitated..but i alwaes dream big..lyk playing in the nba u guys may laugh and i noe tts quite a impossible dream..but i promise i gotta train hard and lived it up to my expectation..I REALLY WAN TO WIN! TO WIN EVERY1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-03-29T18:10:00.003+08:00

"dun wan eat lim bei next time let u eat shit!!"..
never ask me a question preperly b4 alwaes raise ur voice at me...alwaes complain saying tt i alwaes give fcked up attitute when replying her..when said tt she didnt talk to me properly oso..she said she is used to talking lyk tt coz when she is young her family was meant to talk loud..i didnt lyk it..so i give tt fcked up attitute and time after time i am oso used to repl her lyk tt..but can i sae tt this is my reason? fcking no..
"mai zou lim bei ki siao"..
i think tt i should be the 1 saying tt...if u are not my son i wont care so much...die oso ur prob..have u ever wonder all these way of talking to me makes me feel...dunno wad to sae..now comes in a new member of hers..my sister..came back start nag at me..2 person fcking nagging at me..wtf is this shit...i'm going crazy..i will study and fcking bring tt n level cert and throw it in ur face...i am a 无情无义的人..cant fcking believe tts wad a mother would sae out frm her mouth..i already tried my best to do things right...dun wanna take anymore money frm u so i choose to starve outside den taking money frm u..i'm not trying to sae i'm a fcking good son though..but when will u ever fcking stop comparing me to my cousinSSSSSSS yea you right can?? every single cousin of mine is better den me acadamically n filial being as a son..i'm the fcking bad 1 alright?...can i jus fcking walk out of the house??..

some kinda..
perfect mother..
huh?....

bibi i need you =(

2009-03-27T23:48:00.003+08:00

yo ppl haahs
woke up early in the morning to do the stupid e learning thingy..manage to finished half b4 i went out to vroom vroom haha chris was crazy man..the did 120 at acc there due to not enough fuel we drive for a while onli...onli manage to drive 30km/h -.-lll if i were on the big road straight 1 where chris tried i would try it fast too...but i onli manage to try at a carpark-.-lll after tt went to bryan house to slack for awhile den went back home after tt went to gym with cousin whack on the chest now i feel so weak la tomolo dunno still can play bball anot hahas.. after tt went to serangoon ate botak jones not bad quite nice actually hahas den cousin fetch me home...den bath slack talk to bibi on phone den bryan came over to slack den yc came too..went down to slack awhile and now i'm back ahahs!!!

bibi can u feel i'm loving u more??...i hope so jus wanna spent more time with u =o

2009-03-25T20:11:00.002+08:00

finally tomolo is coming!!!!!! cant wait for her to come back hahas...let me guess..she mus be as tan as me now hahas!! mus have alot of sunburn oso hehe^^ till tomolo den hop i can get to see her hahas
..abt todae..sux man!!..went to 108 to meet kylin they all..suppose to meet at 9..but she came onli at 10 plus so buay tahan erwin bryan ng n me went to rp for our breakfast first...after tt went to sch..pe 'o' mr goh wasnt here so we had free lesson after tt went to prepare for match..and this is when the fcked up story starts...went to jurong west sports hall our national b' div 1st round 1st match somemore...agaisnt queensway sec...initially everything was fine..but the refree was so fcked up tt i feel lyk burning down his whole family and go to hell...by far frm the start of out b div match till now we haven had fouled out players b4...and THIS time we have fcking 2 players fouled out..cant describe through blog how fck tt refree was..she was a rookie refree i think coz she lyk 18 or 19 onli...the organization if bball oso abit stupid..nationals and they send some rookie refree...if the send this kinda refree for zonal match i've got nothing to sae..but the nationals!?!?...well the game was over complain oso no use...jus gotta focus on the upcoming next game..

THESE 3 DAES SOMEHOW MADE ME WORRY ABT U...

2009-03-19T00:32:00.004+08:00

PHOTO OF THE DAY!! doesnt tt seems abit lyk jordan? HAHAS JKJK

todae woke up early meet kitsiong kian hao and jeric for breakfast at rp mac..after tt went for training..quite a few number didnt turn up due to overseas and some got SL programme..so its lyk 8 or 9 ppl went for training onli..so coach got a chance for more focus training plans for us..learn low post moves and high post moves..shot quite a number of mid-range shot..seriously need to improve ALOT ALOT ALOT more in my shooting...sux lyk hell man..after tt went home slept for long hours coz didnt had enough slp the night b4..woke up around 6 plus.. had dinner do abit of math den went for bball again with my bros..now jus reach home finished dinner again think gonna slp soon tomolo had early breakfast with hehe......^^V

2009-03-18T00:13:00.008+08:00

MY LOVE BASKETBALL!!!!

PEIXING GOES FOR THE SLAM!

ANDREW GOES FOR IT TOO!!!

I TRIED IT TOO!!!!!!!~~~

AND SOME WINDMILL REVERSE!!

this is cool isnt it?? hehe

long time didnt post eh?? hahas due to some1 hu ask me to post i will post den hahas..todae was soso...had friendly game agaisnt dunman sec i played lyk shit dun even wan to mentioned it-.-...lost by 3 points anyway...after match went home slack had lunch den went out to meet kumar and gang to slack again..my life alwaes been slacking sia..need to study liao lols..ABOVE are some pictures of me and my bball bros when we played bball at anchorvale cc lyk 2 daes ago o.O?? haahs enjoy^^

2009-03-04T00:29:00.003+08:00

its coming..finally..my dream come true..every night..even before this year seasons start..before i slp..i lie on my bed thinking in a situation where i am in the competition agaisnt pres. high...its really been a dream come true for me but..thinking abt it is no use..i gotta perform on tt dae..but i am afraid i might be able to do so...even now is 2 day away frm the match..i can feel the pressure..redsports had been posting abt me for the past 2 games..i am afraid ppl might sae tt i am overrated..till now i am still thinking wad and how would i do..before during and after the match...if we lost how would i feel? if we win how would i feel den?? pres. high is a very very tough opponent..i really wan to win this badly..but even so..looking at the both teams..its almost..not possible..on tt dae there will be supporters..they went to the finals once to watch us play agaisnt the same team and we lost...i dun wan to let them see we lost...on tt dae..i'm goona go all out..with everything i got..even if i got reject,steal.intercept u name it..i'm still gonna play it..

lets go win this NV
even we lost...we noe we tried our best!...

2009-03-02T22:58:00.002+08:00

would u let me be ur prince and u be my princess?
be my juilet and i be ur romeo?..

i jus wan an ans..if u are over me..tell me straight...

2009-02-22T15:02:00.002+08:00

yo!..long time didnt blog..recently haven been a good day for me..sick very fan...sports dae sick run lyk fck.. bball matches had been winning all the way..mondae would be playing agaisnt woodgroove sec..it wont be a easy match so need to be play doubly hard..guess tts all la..bb

2009-02-10T22:27:00.002+08:00

haven been updating my blog for awhile liao..shall update some..hmm for bball we have 4 straight wins and we will be on our way for the 5th 1 this thursdae playing agaisnt woodlands sec..hmm sch as usual den slack...den slack in sch play ball awhile sometimes gym some times running..tts all^^

2009-01-22T18:56:00.002+08:00

21st jan..The story goes...

sch these few daes had been fcked..damn fcking sianz de lo..walk here n there slp..after sch go slack den eat den went for gym todae..did quite alot..tomolo cny celebrations dunno wan go anot hahasthink going la after tt 3.30 have training and den i will be looking forward to 28th..yishun sec..compassvale is down fyi..79-27 i think ahhas^^ ..so till den!!!!^^v

season starts...

2009-01-18T15:28:00.002+08:00

yesterdae had my 3click run at macritche damn tt was tired..running in a forest up n down slope aint easy..need to keep pace but need to keep balance at the same time..few of my bud fell lucky me tt i didnt fell onli slip abit coz all of the small rocks there hahas went back sch slack awhile eat den go home slp all the way till 6 plus...den larry called me for bball at buangkok at 7.30 reach there 8 didnt see him-.-lll...he was too tired coz of adidas gold training hahas..so played with a bball teammates there around 10 plus go home bryan came to talk n slack till around 3am? den he went home i went to bed..woke up lyk 11 in the morning la..still damn tired think i gonna slp later again lols...

CANT WAIT FOR TOMOLO!!!
first game for the season!! didnt get into the team and didnt play for lyk 1 season..damn regret now i gonna take it all back!!!
cant wait to see my love 1 there tomolo too^^V!!!!!

2009-01-15T23:32:00.002+08:00

com went for repair and its finally back...almost a week without com..almost died lols..when my com come back i was lyk heaven la LOLS!...sch has been alright for me nth changes much..having fun times with my bros...4 MORE DAES!!! AND ITS NORTH ZONE COMPETITION..12 pm compassvale sec...cant wait to play man...i didnt had tt feeling for lyk 1 year plus? coz last year was stupid and didnt get into team for some reason lols..this year i'm gonna play all out!!

anyway changed jersey number #9 liao hehe^^v

2009-01-04T00:19:00.002+08:00

todae had training in the morning 8 and i onli had lyk 4 hours of sleep the dae b4..tsk tsk haiz..still in slacking mood...dun even feel lyk studying luhh -.-lll...after training went to slack with the same gang at the same spot too hahastill around 1 plus left coz need to meet yc for chu shi...meet him at cp at 2.30 and was late for lyk 15mins?? hahas but every1 oso late de la so nvm hahas..leroy was funny..joker among the gang hahas...actually we had lots of fun when we are outing chi shi..but jus dunno y my mother hates it so much la..she wont give me a chance haiz..actually i got the heart to play but jus didnt get the chance...mayb till i am older ba hahas...so we reach chinatown around 5 plus?? hahas den eat drink and off we go..300++ lions moving around china town!!1 could u imagine it?? hahas..was kinda new eexperince for me hahas...fun thing was tt when we are moving around chinatown..ppl will stand by the sides watching and i would everytime go di siao them as long as i caught them looking at me or should i sae my lion hahas ESPECIALLY CHIO BU!!!! hahas!!!!..will purposely move close them den scare them ahahs den some small boy boy n girl girl or almost every1 will sayang the lion den i will purposely move the lion head and rub against them lyk wan to be pamperd and sayang lyk tt hahas!!!! tt was fun man!!!! after tt went back to joo seng put things back den cab home with drew n chai...didnt regret going there to had fun ahahs^^

heard a nice song todae frm kumar originally frm kylin...tear down the stars^^ its a nice song recommand every1 go have a listen^^

"And I need those lips,that ignite my bones. (and keep my heart afloat) I'll tear down the stars and Ill give them to you. They're not as pretty as your eyes,but I guess it will have to do. I'll tear down the stars, we can ride it to the moon. I'll float till I find you. I wouldnt ever let you fall, down. ..." song:Tear Down The Star
artist:The Years Gone By

2008-12-31T18:30:00.003+08:00

LAST DAE OF 2008!!!!!! gonna celebrate it later on with gang hahas^^...2008 is coming to an end let us all welcome 2009..hope it would be a good year and things will go smoothly for every1^^...new year reselution for me? hmm....

1)pass my N level and promote to sec 5 of coz-.-lll
2)excel in bball and help the sch to get into nationals...
3)last of all...everything go smoothly in life for me and all of my bros out there^^

jus went to cut hair...last time used to kp so much when my hair is cut tt little bit..now i feel nth!!! i can swear u guys will be pretty shock when the sch reopen...coz my hair is FCKING SHORT!!!! hahas...but i think it looks fine hahas...mayb is bcoz of some1 tt made me feel this way.."nationals or your hair?"...still love my bball team more den my hair i guess..tts y i dun feel a thing when my hair is cut hahas^^...BUT DUN LAUGH AT ME WHEN SCH REOPENS!!! HAHAS^^

2008-12-30T22:47:00.002+08:00

yo ppl..^^ wan can i sae?? hmm time really fliesSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS...1 year had passed!!! 2 more daes and sch is reopening...during the 1 year process feels lyk everything is slow..but when the year is coming to an end..i realise tt its actually very fast..sch reopening yet i still haven pack my bag..haven cut my hair dun have the mood to start studying..shit man...

went out jus now to slack with kumar and gang..very sianz..actually should have go played bball with cousin haahs..after reach home first thing i noe is quarreling...mother n sis-.-lll all dae long man..all dae long...most fcked up feeling..reach home wanted to get rest n peaceful but everything jus gets fcked..wadeva la..lyk i alwaes sae

FUCK LIFE!!!! HAHAS =P

2008-12-27T13:53:00.001+08:00

these few daes felt damn lonely...mood swing or wad..gan sianz..no 1 talks to me..whole dae alone at home every1 is bz with their stufff sianz..fck life sia

2008-12-25T13:46:00.002+08:00

hmm..slept around 4am this morning hahas..ALL BCOZ OF CHENNING'S FAULT..she keep wanting to webcam with me LOLS!!!(gonna get killed here hahas...)den jiu entertain each other..she eating the hello pandas...-.-lll i watching my youtube hahas..after tt mother kp liao so jiu went to bed liao...but b4 all these was a great xmas eve night with my bros...went out around 630..cycle half way at the punggol park opp the coffee shop jiu rain lyk shit liao..bo bian need to wait at busstop..-.-lll around 650 no rain liao jiu headed to upper meet kumar n varun to buy bottle..so when every1 including zhihui settle down at punggol park i think is around 8 plus liao..had fun talking and drinking...time really flies..its around 11 so varun had to leave first..den slowly kumar left..left with me n zhihui...so we find a nice place to sit down and talk after tt 12 plus liao den jiu go le lor...so tts all i had for the dae hahas..

wishing every1 a MERRY XMAS!!!

2008-12-22T23:54:00.003+08:00

knn gan pua sianz..these few daes everydae play bball go out slack with bros..todae went to punggol cc help out TY...more lyk slacking there hahas coz didnt really help anything..after tt went to buangkok eat..told her will leave around 11.30..knn 11 20 plus jiu call me gan...knn how old liao sia..next year 16 liao still can go out lyk as if i dunno how to take care of myself...being controlled lyk a small boy lyk tt..den told her my phone spoil liao no reception b4 liao..den talk halfway cut off not even 5 secs jiu call yc..den knn tio gan by him..knn gan jiong wad sia..macham i will die lyk tt..lyk i wont call her back...when will i have my freedom and independence!?

ccb..

2008-12-09T22:30:00.000+08:00

Hehe. I got in into this asshole's blog! Lol. Everytime scold me. & I say GOT MEANS GOT!

Yc is also another asshole lor. We 'ming lian' each other already la hor? Haha! Wish you 早点 find your dream girl. Excited about the Os results?! Gooood luck. Cya in Jan la. :)

Since I rarely talk to you 2, I shall take this chance to scold y'all. ASSHOLE ASSHOLE ASSHOLE! Teehee!

2008-12-01T02:07:00.002+08:00

yo..noe my blog is dead..mayb no 1 even reads it hahas..hmm i'm back frm my trip safely nothing went wrong..so u guys can relax now..i noe the news has been saying thailand is very messy or wadsoever hahas..but we were totally not affected by it..infact it is jus lyk normal life there and me n the team sure had a superb time there..it was fun new experince for us and for me 2 hahas coz its the 1st time tt i went overseas alone with frens hahas..the team,teachers,tour guide and coach had fun time there...we play hard both on and off the court...on the court we played our best...( NO FEAR NO FEAR!!!!) tts wad we said b4 matches as we were physically smaller size den the thai players most of the times..but we gave them a good fight we gave it all we had and i am sure the team has no regrets we mayb losing up to 45 points to the thai sch but hey..they were some of the top basketball schools in thailand..and we manage to win some i think it is quite a good result for the team..though i wish we could win more..apart frm the games..we donate some food drinks etc to the disable home..it was a brand new experince for me as i didnt get so close to ppl tt were mentally or physically disable..but it was a nice experince...bought a couple of things tt i lyk there though the last dae was abit tiring getting up 5.30 in the morning waiting in the airport for more than 5 hours pushing our way through over thousand of ppl there and finally reach sg to meet our loved ones...all i can sae is it was a superb experince for the team and me for both on n off the court and i am sure the bonding between us has greatly increased...

once again NV WHOOOSH!!!..^^V

2008-11-26T00:09:00.002+08:00

yoyo. i realised tt this blog is rotting, and this guy is overseas, so i help him to post sth.. enjoy ur hols, guy.=)

2008-10-24T01:03:00.002+08:00

This goes out to someone that was
Once the most important person in my life
I didn’t realize it at the time
I can’t forgive myself for the way I treated you so
I don’t really expect you to either
It’s just... I don’t even know
Just listen…

You’re the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel

That wasn’t me; let me show you the way
I looked for the sun, but it’s raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies

I wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt
But I didn’t know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn’t care when push came to shove

If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don’t know how I could do you so wrong

I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one could else know you
You’re number one, always in my heart
And now I can’t believe that our love is torn apart

Chorus
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you’re holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can’t hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain

Damn it, I’m insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work

What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you loved me
As you would hugged me

I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I’m not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is not blind

Chorus
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

[Talking] I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but…
No matter what, you’ll always be in my heart
You’ll always be my baby

Our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you
Remember when you first came to my house?
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse

We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can’t take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart, I know I’m still there
I don’t wanna hear that you no longer care

Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?
I didn’t think you would ever do me like this
I didn’t think you’d wanna see me depressed
I thought you’d be there for me, this I confess

You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I’m nothing to you, you’re with another guy
I tried, I tried, I tried, and I’m trying
Now on the inside it feels like I’m dying

Chorus
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

[Talking] And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we’ll never know
The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me, or without me
i just want you to be happy

somehow this song gave me lots of emotions running through me..
i dunno why..mayb u're implanted in my brain..
i jus cant let u go..
after so long...

2008-10-19T03:54:00.002+08:00

its 3.55am now...nth to do..cant slp..kept thinking of her..thinking of the times when we were so close tgt but now..it seems so near but its so far..she's some1 else...viewing her blog makes me sad..seeing them tgt holding hands make it worse..tts the reason y i dun really wanna go meet them..everydae think of u..once told myself dun be a dog..but i am already a dog la..FUCK!!~~..things i wan in my life never happen...NEVER!...she sound lyk she is super duper madly in love with tt guy..i cant do anything too..wish her luck ba..still loving her every hour, mins , secs...when sometimes think of her too much..will take her photo to see..but see le jiu will think alot of things..den jiu super sad..forget it..life sucks..D=

2008-10-14T21:38:00.003+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER!!..though hols are lyk 10 9 daes later..but i already dun feel lyk going to sch liao lol..go out almost everydae..shall not eleborate more on the past...todae went out to watch movie with ayton and some ppl..went to kumar's house slack..den moved to punggol park slack..den now home liao..

though exams are over but still feeling sad la..once gave me much hope now its jus all empty..shouldnt put much hope into it in the 1st place..now tt she is some1 else..well,1 of my bros i cant do anything oso la..dun wanna quarrel and make things diff for ppl..jiu shui yuan qiu lo...force le oso no use..as long as she is happy..i will be happy la..tts all liao^^v

2008-09-18T23:55:00.002+08:00

how to explain my feelings nw best?..
hmmm....emo..
sad...
dunnoo...

2008-09-07T04:01:00.003+08:00

so many things happen to me lately...i am starting to get confused..confused if i am myself...i am not lyk this before..i am starting to lost the direction in my life..i once thought i noe myself best..but tts wrong..coz i start to not know wad i am myself...after so long..i start to felt guilty..at first i thought of revenging the world..but seems lyk i came up to my senses..tts y i feel guilty..tts y i feel confused...after so much sins i have done..think theres no way back anymore..i can onli stay guilty forever...lifes so complicated...my onli bro is alwaes there for me thanks yo..but hu understands me most??? tts the question...i n u cant even be frenz now...put the blame on me..for being too childish tt time..y the best things in life jus slip away frm my hand everytime..now tt so many things had occur..i cant even forgive myself...

this song here sounds very very meaningful to me..listen to the lyrics and u will get it...

我曾经以为爱上你不会错
你如今变得让我没有把握
曾经的承诺对与错
回过头又算是什么
这失去的爱如何能复活
你过的生活似乎很快乐
我虽然难过爱让我懦弱
付出的太多无法解脱
这心痛你能明白吗
我应该如何才不会是这结果
我爱你爱得好辛苦爱的好孤独爱的没有退路
我好无助我不去痛苦忍不住的哭
这是你给我的礼物
我爱你爱的好辛苦爱的好糊涂
爱的不能醒目
你好残酷我看着来路你并不在乎
也许吧我无所谓一个人去漫步
爱的好辛苦
你过的生活似乎很快乐
我虽然难过爱让我懦弱
付出的太多无法解脱
这心痛你能明白吗
我应该如何才不会是这结果
我爱你爱得好辛苦爱的好孤独爱的没有退路
我好无助我不去痛苦忍不住的哭
这是你给我的礼物
我爱你爱的好辛苦爱的好糊涂
爱的不能醒目
你好残酷我看着来路却并不在乎
也许吧我无所谓
我爱你爱得好辛苦爱的好孤独爱的没有退路
我好无助我不去痛苦忍不住的哭
这是你给我的礼物
我爱你爱的好辛苦爱的好糊涂
爱的不能醒目
你好残酷我看着来路却并不在乎
也许吧我无所谓一个人去漫步

2008-08-21T23:26:00.002+08:00

todae almost late for sch..chiong bike again..sweat lyk fuck when i reach sch hahas..sch as usual..jus tt todae got 2 fights..1 is the 2 bryans(ong n ng) the other is bryan again but is (lau) n ayton..lol haiz fight very nice meh??LOL i support world peace!!!^^v hmm had chem test todae..think i am gonna die...tomoloo math test oso gonna die i think..after sch went to slack..actually wanted to go watch movie but suddenly no mood liao jiu never go hahas..slack with the usual ppl..not gonna eleborate more on the slacking part coz its alwaes the same hahas^^..seperated at 4.30 i guess..ayton cant ride a bike man..fall lyk FUCK!! hahas!...so i went home slept till 8 plus hahas..so woke up eat dinner den watch D-WAR haha quit nice if dragon exist i think i will have 1 loyal 1 to be by my side hahas they looks interesting^^..den now posting lor..hmm think tss all la..oh ya tomolo road run liao..hope i can pull through it M . O . B !!!!!

You call me a stranger, you say I'm a danger,
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight.
I'm broken, abandoned; you are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight.

I'm confident,
But I can't pretend I wasn't terrified to meet you.
I knew you could see right through me
I saw my life flash right before my very eyes
And any chance what we turn into
I was hoping that you could see

-secondhand serenade stranger

2008-08-20T22:02:00.002+08:00

dodnt went for training todae...i am jus not dicipline enough haiz..overslept so didnt go..went to sch manage to reach on time but was sweating lyk hell when reached..lol sch as per normal slacking..guess i gonna start mugging after the 1 week hols^^..wanted to run this few daes but didnt had a chance...think i am gonna die for this coming 2.4 click relay lol...i think i am the slowest among them haha...after sch dun hav things to do jiu borrow skipping rope skipped a thousand times hahas..oso borrowed 1 back to train myself at home..I WANNA DUNK!!^^v...went to slack with kumar awhile den go home..total sian..no1 was at home..so slack at home till 6 plus went to yc house slack ate abit..den change house..back to mine slack till now lor..todae oso nth much to post hahas tts all folks^^

2008-08-16T00:41:00.003+08:00

watched the olympics basketball game till 2 am in the morning and slept for onli 4 hours and off i went to sch..sch was okay..actually..sch everydae oso ok de unless bad things happen ba...hmm..after sch went to rp mac to eat with ayton n kumar and mr sophian...hmm after tt went to blk slack..went to coffee shop slack again..leave the place at 3.15 and reach exactly at 3.30 for bball training..training was fun though...played forward todae^^v after training cycled home half way saw bball court cannot tahan jiu go play awhile till 8 plus yc came den jiu go home liao...reach home bath used com den went to buangkok eat supper went back home actually wanted to go find fren but lazy...heard some 1 sae something bad abt me..mayb i am really a hongster la wadeva..let it be fck care life...lyk any1 cares...asked yihui to meet me to chat and talk coz tt thing makes me abit no mood...hmm den now reach home posting lor..guess i gotta slp soon buay tahan..sibei tired...

i love u so much...
no matter ppl out there sae i am hongster or wad..
i still love u lyk before..
but its all useless now..
coz i'm a hongster..
and sure tts a fcking
piece of good news to u
yea??....

2008-08-14T23:33:00.001+08:00

most boring birthdae i ever had..
14/8/08..
whole dae stay in house..
nth much to post abt...jus a boring dae todae...

2008-08-13T21:32:00.005+08:00

你最近还。。。好吗？。。。

好想你
好想以前我在一起
你是否也在回忆里振扎
你现在因该活得很开心吧？
也因该很讨厌。。。我吧？
我留在多回忆对你来说也只是负但吧
不。。。因该说。。你不在理我了吧？
你说过。。永远爱我。。
永不放开我。。你还记得吗？
你说过就算我要放开手你也不肯吗？
你说的一字一语我都记得。。。
现在看到你就像是看到莫深人。。。
你知到我有多心痛吗？
你不但不知道也因该很讨厌我吧。。。
心痛谁知。。。
心碎你也不管
你就向辛福的方向奔跑吧。。。
脑袋里的话多得不知要从哪开始说。。。
我。。不知道为何不给我解释的机会
弄得我们连朋友都没得做。。
知要可以看到你安全的背影我就放心。。。
记得不要被仁人伤害到你。。。
否则我会很伤心。。。
虽然我知到不可能
可是我还要说。。。
我的大门永远为你开着
伤心的时候随时欢迎你来。。。

我。。。还发放不下。。。

2008-08-09T16:58:00.003+08:00

went to sch yesterdae for national dae celebration...it was a nice 1..had jam band performace dedication song performace food n drink stalls and games..dedicate a song to some1 den watch jam band performace for awhile..around 10.30 jiu leave sch le..back to the ols daes at stone table^^ fcking miss tt place..wanted to go there for a long time already..going back there brings back memories..but we slack there oso got bad things happen..guess its due to 7th month ghost festival i think..shall not sae anything abt tt..i dun wanna remember anything abt it..after tt went home..slp awhile yc came met up with old fren jolin n terrence went to 316 bball court..played a few games..was fun after tt 8 plus jiu go back home le..jie fu xia chu wooohooo~~~ ate 2 big bowl of rice hahas his cooking freaking nice la..lol watch olympic opening ceremony den watch dou niu yao bu yao lol streetball hahasdunno all real de or fake de lor..after tt 2 plus buay tahan jiu slp le..todae woke up around 1plus..yc asked me to watch basketball olympic games..lol wtf its girls match i tot is guys 1...oso watched beach volleyball den nth to watch liao jiu use com lor..i think i fcking waste a saturdae..wanna go out but rain till so jia lat oso bo bian i guess hahas..hope tomolo wont rain for me to go out ba hahas^^

2008-08-07T16:02:00.002+08:00

this few daes has been rather tiring for me..dunno y..surely not bcoz of late slping..coz usually i sleep around 12 plus i still get up for sch..this few daes wake up damn tired..no mood for sch..haiz..bad bad me..mus faster go back sch liao..hmm...this whole week i hav been going down to 316 bball court to find some1..but wasnt there haiz how saddening..hope tt gt chance to see each other again ba..hmm yesterdae was oso the same..went to cp ate kfc den slack den go back home change den go play bball with terrence n yc..played 2 on 1..i am the (1)..fucking tired la..but still great game though..8 plus went back home rest den msn..after 1 by 1 started to leave den i am left alone again LOL..yea tts abt it...blog later on if anything interesting happens^^

2008-08-06T12:14:00.002+08:00

todae i had a dream..a stupid 1...better dun sae ba..its stupid+embarrasing hahas..hmm overslept todae didnt went to sch...later meeting yc n terence so mayb post in the night again^^
ohya check out my new blogskin^^

2008-07-27T22:34:00.002+08:00

yesterdae went for training in the morning..played a very physical game..had scratches all over my hand..but its a great game..after tt went home meet yc den slept awhile wait for mother come back for lunch,reach grandma house at 5.20 for tuition math...hmm abit sianz but oso had fun ba..coz managed to do those question..after tt go home watch cd till 3 den slp...todae woke up at 10..prepare everything for sentosa meet yi hui(guy) and yee hui(girl) at my house downstairs den went to cp to take $$$ den left for vivo..reach there should be around 12 le..had lunch there knn 1 nasi lemak cost me 7.50 -.-lll meet with jingjie freda louis xavier ben n brian...reached sentosa around 1 plus ba..found a shaded place put down our bags n vollyball is our kick off point..had fun and as time pass by we are getting high we took off our shirt and continue the game and we are getting into the game more n more...after tt went to the sea to cool down played water monkey...dear reached around 3 den she played with her frenz first...after tt dear n her frenz joined in to play it was a big group..around 10 plus near 20 person ba hahaafter tt the girls continue their water games..we went to buy some drinks and snacks went back to the beach and vollyball again this is when it is fun coz every 1 is crazy!!! doing all sorts of stunt haha den went down to play water polo awhile den slack awhile den jiu go bath le..after tt had a honey time with ddear..went to eat den back home...sent her home oso^^ a sweet time^^

2008-07-10T23:42:00.002+08:00

slack at sch as usual..after tt go watch c boys game...was a exciting one...after went back sch play bball awhile den go home..
i heard it all and theres nth left for me to sae le..i'm a creep...how i wish there is such a thing called
time machine...

2008-07-09T10:47:00.001+08:00

ya...i suxxxx alot.. u rox so much....sry arh..shldnt had appear infront of u...

2008-06-29T22:30:00.000+08:00

back to the old me gyming n balling...wanna be the best i can be...gonna play for my life...

2008-06-19T00:50:00.002+08:00

feel so sian...sch gonna reopen soon..still slacking my life here not even prepared for sch reopen..this few daes have been very sian...nth much to post too..jus finish my project...post again..
seeya^^

2008-06-17T02:23:00.003+08:00

i dun wanna dirty my blog by posting things abt u...
u dun desever to be even mention by me..

2008-06-05T23:32:00.002+08:00

if u still view this blog den i would lyk to tell ya smth..

i dunno y u still angry with me or wadeva...mayb for some reason i dunno...but i noe 1 of it is the previous post...yea i show every1 ur name in the post which give ppl bad impression of u...now it's my turn...

SORRY GWEN LEE FANG WEI..

continue the hate if u wan..i cant do anything either...
jus to let go smth in my heart...

2008-05-21T23:04:00.000+08:00

so confused..so many ppl sae diff things..i dunno wad to do..

2008-05-15T20:57:00.001+08:00

甘心替代你　鄭伊健

曲：陳光榮
詞：劉卓輝
編：陳光榮／Ted Lo　

不管天邊風已起　只想依依看著你　
夜闌人靜會否仍可希冀　

＊經得起憂傷與悲　只因心中有著你　
路遙長夜記憶從不捨棄　

＃長街的身影穿過風雨有傲氣　
曾一起出走不怕闖進了絕地
如霧如煙　全像遊戲　

＃彷彿天和地在挑選我跟你　
如像我亦重遇了生死　
難道只好淌淚心痛告別你　
無法讓我此際替代你　

Repeat＊＃

＠彷彿天和地在挑選我跟你　
如像我亦重遇了生死　
難道只好淌淚心痛告別你
無法讓我甘心替代你　

cando song here found it while watching young and dangerous..this song might be the 1 for me...

2008-05-14T00:55:00.001+08:00

is the necklace still with u? or is it it the rubbish dum??..or isit even meaningless haiz..

2008-05-02T22:23:00.002+08:00

sometimes when i was jus emptying my mind,my mind sudden will appear the image of u..jus lyk todae while i was slacking with my frenz...it has been 92 daes..my heart felt the same..
mayb in ur eyes..i am a bastard..i already dun hav the chance to do anything to change ur heart...i care so much abt u..but it has to be indirect..my heart felt so pain when i thought of those memories...the 2010 memories alwaes appear in my mind..i alwas thought if we were really in tt situation..i remember wad we had said..i remember every single dae tt we had together...i remember wad u said if the 2010 was true..all i had to sae is..i dun cre if the 2010 is true..but on the 2010 december 27...i will be with u..i might not be seen but mayb at ur back seeing u at a dark corner...
jus wanna sae...
whenever or whereever i see a black with yellow colour nike sling back...

i think of u...

2008-04-22T22:22:00.003+08:00

lol some1 force me to post so i guess i jus have to..LOL...lets err...visit semei ite for the past 2 daes...the sch is soo big tt u can lost ur way there..the sch facilities rox...lyk a brand new sch..walking in the sch feels lyk walking in the mall haahs especially thier indoor sports hall one word to describe it..SUPERB! their bball court isnt the nba style but still very cool those kind..smth lyk connect to the ciling de..beside the court is a gym shiok sia..after bball training can train weights training..perfect training man...if i have the whole indoor sports hall i can give up everything..LOL but guess tt cost up to few hundred thousand mayb..LOL..dunno la..anyway didnt get a chance to play bball there coz they sae they are drawing lines on the court so needs to be clean...wtf..go back sch after the visit..cycle ahmad's bike to home for the past 3 daes too...think if i do this everydae i can seriously train my leg hahas^^ reach home get change den went to skcc..ballin there was FUN..hahas think i improve my skills..shootong n drving in somehow..serious love the game deeply now..played till 6 plus went home..bath eat den went to slack n now i am here posting for some1 to see..-.-lll aight end here lets wait for tomolo post...
OHYA tomolo got whyee nam friendly coach ask me go..gotta see if i got a chance to play hahas^^...tts all

2008-04-15T21:21:00.002+08:00

todae met wei chiat n wei hua at cp den go eat mac...9 plus went to skcc was acually expecting no1 was there but suprisingly there is 1 girl..so we get to play bball...start round 10 ba..play till bernice they all came..which is around 2 plus..b4 tt was me wei chiat wei hua a uncle and a girl play...damn fcking sianz..so start playing free throw winner wins 2 dollars...first time 6/10 den wei chiat oso same so tie breaker 2nd time 7/10 wei chiat oso de same!! third time 8/10 WEI CHIAT STILL E SAME...i am starting to suspect if he plays basketball or soccer lol den 4th time 7/10 WEI CHIAT STILL THE SAME...last time 8/10 finally win him hahas...2dollar is hard to earn..hahas rest awhile ppl start to come..so i start to get serious shooting did get my touch back...but everytime start a match my touch is all gone...dunno y..haiz sian but todae driving was not bad..drive pass alot of players and manage to get into the basket hahas...den played some 4 on 4 game...my team wasnt really good...opposing team is slightly better haahs i am lyk a superstar layer there LOL jkjk den about 5 plus went to get change den went home ate my chicken rice rest a while den slp mother came home and starts her radio again so woke up bath feeling still hungry so made cup noodle to eat and here i am posting once again haahs^^

i am happiest when i am balling..
no 1 really noes me...left alone..
i love it when i am alone in the court with a basketball..
guess onli basketball understands me..the rest...
nahz...

2008-04-12T21:30:00.003+08:00

Rotten blog has a new post!!! hahas
todae morning woke up at 7.20 drank some apple juice jiu went for training liao..cycled there was quite early..think i am the earliest for B'div boys...some C'div boys reach there early as they have their cip to do..after tt jackie colin qiu zhen larry qun liang came..
Started training abt 8 plus pretty tiring guess i really need to quit..did some drills..1on1 game 2on2 game den off to a full court 5 on 5 hahas pretty happy with the game as i played quite well ^^v there was team work and victory was in our hand in the end ^^game halfway saw her walking down beside of the court with her frenz...her head never turned.. i was looking at her lyk i never b4 lyk i first saw her...but she just never turned...
after the game slack awhile den cycled home with jackie..reach home play ps2 bath yc came and alex came back to sg too so went to cp walk walk findding stock but dun have so went to rp oso dun have den go back cp...went to eat den go home with mother(goodboy ^^v)...slp all the way till 8 plus..den here i am playing com hahas..
heres a new song quite nice hahas ^^

你不在当我最需要爱
你却不在 wo

你不在高兴还是悲哀
你都不在

我受了伤害再偷偷好起来
你不在

那些摇摆我都明白
都明白
但你不在爱已不在不在
你不在当我最需要爱
你却不在 wo

你都不在 wo
像空气般不存在的存在...

2008-04-11T20:55:00.000+08:00

it hurts so much jus to see how much u care for him...

2008-03-30T13:31:00.002+08:00

damn...i jus couldnt make her out of my mind...
i was already on my way letting u go...
but jus yesterdae night...i dreamt of her..
dreamt of something stupid..i shant eleborate more on the dream...
which brings me back of memories...which hold me back again...
it's already 58 daes since we have broken up..n i am still waiting..
i am jus so fcking streesed up...
i dun wanna disturb or irritate u..
so i choose to forget u...
but such things happen eveytime when i was abt to forget u..
who can tell me...how to forget her?
my love for u hs already leave a scar in my heart which will never be erased..
even if 1 dae i got better..i still have the scar in my heart...
guess i was rite..
u're my last girl..
i would'nt find any1 to replace u again...
n u jus wouldnt give em a chance...
a chance to prove tt i still love u as much as b4...
somedaes i jus feel lyk crying but i cant..
coz i cant let ppl noe y..
but who really cares for me??
guess no 1 really does..who can i pour out my feeling n sadness to?
no 1...i am jus deeply deeply saddend..

E.N.D.O.F.P.O.S.T.

2008-03-23T16:58:00.002+08:00

my blog song...

天意 (劉德華)
誰在乎我的心裡有多苦
誰在意我的明天去何處
這條路究竟多少崎嶇多少坎坷途
我和妳早已沒有回頭路

我的愛藏不住　任憑世間無情的擺佈
我不怕痛不怕輸
只怕是再多努力也無助

如果說一切都是天意
一切都是命運　終究已注定
是否能再多愛一天
能再多看一眼　傷會少一點

如果說一切都是天意
一切都是命運　誰也逃不離
無情無愛此生又何必

無情無愛此生我認命

promise pignat to blog abt my suspendsion but i already forget most of it hahas..
anyway i was suspended for lyk 2& half daes lol..during suspension..slack around blk shopping.. around all those lor.lol PIGNAT I POST LIAO LA GOT PEI U OKAY?? LOL..

if u every view this blog....

2008-03-15T22:28:00.003+08:00

not blogging le...coz it brings me saddness memories...this will be my last post..
think i not gonna argue much with u le..coz u will never forgive me..the post..ha..
it's jus a lie..coz i need u baby my last post n never gonna post...

this is....for you

sorry... i am really sorry.
我又一次把你气哭在陌生街头
爱你...我当然爱你
自从第一眼到现在什至没人敢预测的将来
请你相信不是我不愿意改变我自已
而是一再努力又一再放弃那个软弱的自已
其实我恨透了我自已没有认输的勇气
让你受尽了不安和委屈
你是我这一生这一生最最最害怕去伤害到的人
也是我这一生这一生唯一能让我安定下来的人
虽然我并没有并没有并没有一身温纯的灵魂
但是我很愿意很愿意做那个永远照顾你的人
我的爱人请听我有颗不善言语的心
只能够看着你远处的背影

2008-03-15T01:15:00.002+08:00

i really hope tt u can come back to me..back to arms..i really love u..previously wanted to forget u..but it's jus too difficult..i jus cant walk out frm u...u really have already forgot those memories? the time we spent together?

can we jus put down all the past and start a new fresh again??...
i hope we can..coz i jus cant let u go..
i love you...

they say every1 has a 2nd chance..can i have mine 2?...

2008-03-13T01:58:00.002+08:00

woke up early in the morning to practise my piano...rush through my theory den practise alittle bit cher jiu reached le...after piano lesson meet up with jx...slack at my house for awhile den later went out to slack..we went back to his house to take his bike...initially wanted to meet up with kumar they all at stone table...we were lyk chionging desperately in the rain la...den reach there didnt even see a single soul...so i had my lunch at veri nice...after tt we went out to cycle again..the rain got heavier n heavier n we are jus loving it...when i saw a puddle of water i skidded my bike towards him den all the water splash to him haahs!!..den his bike no brake den bo bian he use leg to splash me lol..not as powerful as my skidding technic HAHAHS!!...we jus loved chionging in the rain..u may think tt its childish...but it actually relax my feeling..sometimes..i think doing some crazy stuff will make u feel good when u are really tired of ur life...reach home macham lyk jus came out of the bathing tub...dry myself den bath..after bathing standard..play game...den yc reach my house..730 plus went out for T.Y member birthdae party..wen to cp saw some of our members...took 89 to pasir ris...den went into the bbq pit..starting was raining quite heavily..after tt was ok...quite alot of ppl came down...interesting part is tt there was a fight..shall not eleborate more on tt...went back home at 12 plus..ate kfc...den go down slack den now come back le..haven even bath...and now it's already 2.08am lol...tomolo still need to wake up early for bball...

i guess i really dun stand a chance..coz i can see in ur eyes tt..i am already not tt place in your heart...i guess i have to walk out of ur heart..and oso walk out of the old memories lyk wad my fren said..coz when i am feeling sad..nobody noes..wad my fren said was right...it's not worth it for wad i am doing...

2008-03-08T23:46:00.002+08:00

woke up todae for stupid cip thing..fck..went to hougang slack eat mac den left with a few hours den start wrk...after tt go bck sch den slack at stone table..den went home..play com slp..den wake up eat play com again..

i guess..the sadness will be within me forever..till the dae u forgive me..i totally lost to u..i admit its my fault i admiteverything..i surrender..plz dun ignore me can??plz??coz tts the most painful thing..u really nt gonna talk to me forever?? GWEN SORRY FORGIVE ME WILL U????
DUN LEAVE ME ALONE HERE PLZ!!!!!!!!!!!

Your Guardian Angel-Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

if i happen to die..its becoz i die for u..
if we are not able to be together..i wont blame u....
i will onli blame myself for nt able to love u more...
i am sry for wad i have done..

2008-03-07T22:37:00.003+08:00

i am damn sad...i didnt mean to sae those words...i was at the moment of anger tts y i sae those hurting words...i noe i shouldnt have sae those words..but i was jus too angry ..i noe i am selfish and didnt gave a thought for u...now tt u dun even wan to talk to me...dun even give alittle care for me..i knew i was wrong..i regretted..sry gwen..SRY GWEN!!!!...
u can do wadeva u wan to me..u can scold me beat me up or anything u wan...but nt ignoring it can???coz it's the most painful thing i have ever felt in my life...cant u see tt i still love u??...
cant u feel tt??..dun ignore me plz..
dun leave me alone here...
i still love gwen..
MUCH MORE DEN B4!!!

"你是我最深爱的女人
你有最美丽的嘴唇
你拥有最动人的眼神
你带给我幸福和快乐"

2008-03-05T23:43:00.004+08:00

toae went to sch..morning got bball training...though abit scared scared coz long time never play liao but my shooting is still there...i think there are lots more room for me to grow..i've gotto work hard...

sch totally sianz.. in class zo bo...ad 2 test...math n chi...both ok la..can pass...average pass hahas...after sch went to art room to help PIG to do her mascord...the lion looks abit weird...hahas den went to eat den go back to see the mascord again which look much better hahas...after she went to cp eat i go slack with LS...todae slack awhile nia jiu go back home liao...eat..slp...wake up use com..read paper...LOL...

though saying those negative stuffs abt u...but it jus tt i dun wan to show a sad face...i noe u have no feelings for me le..i noe we cant get bck to the past too...i tried to forget u but i cant...now i am all alone and wad u left for me is pain..the pain tt seeing u leaving me..leaving my arms...

你的爱已不在我为什么还在这发呆

我为什么还爱你为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因你狠心把我丢在这里
我为什么还爱你为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因你狠心丢我在这里

2008-03-03T19:14:00.003+08:00

this post ruined my life...

2008-03-01T13:38:00.002+08:00

there were tons of frenz there to care for u...i saw ur tagboard....hahas feeling quite comfort huhh?..
i am at a dark lonely corner..crying alone without any1 noeing it...
i had to fake a smile...and even change my mood which is so diff to...coz i need to face my relative n frenz..
they noe my character is not a emo guy type...thus i have to fake a smile..
act a happy face...but hu noes how i feel deep down inside?...guess no 1 does..
wads more weird is tt in my eyes...theres no more other gals...my vision has been coverd by u...entirely..
i noe..its too late to apologize...
i am jus a useless freak..

GET LOST!!!
GABRIEL IS DEAD!

2008-02-29T23:56:00.002+08:00

went for cca relay todae..bball is once again 1st...

the dae tt i fear most has finally happen...i didnt expect tt such thing will happen to me...
we have already ended...i still dont believe wad is had happen to me...
the past promises tt we made had all broken up...mayb we jus didnt spend more time together so we dun have much topic to talk abt...but i believe tt if we have more time together things will be diff...but seems lyk u wont give me tt chance..coz ur love of fire for me has burnout rite?...we didnt make through the 2012 dec 29 promise...hu saes without i would be happier??
wad makes u think so?
mayb tts jus wad u think..mayb wad u wan is to get rid of me..
but i jus cant stop loving u...
without u=a empty body without a soul...

so for now..

GABRIEL IS DEAD...

2008-02-27T21:16:00.003+08:00

was'nt a good dae for me...sch normal..woke up early in the morning go cut hair in the end still kena cut...after sch went to cp find her..went to pizza eat...send her home after tt...den went home...den go out play soccer nw came back...nth much for todae la...jus a fcking bad dae for me...

i gave in...
u wan freedom??
sure..
as long as u r happy..
as long as u love me...

i am incomparable...

2008-02-24T11:00:00.002+08:00

was bored todae nth better to do so went to do some bo liao things...
and this is wad i get from myahoo love valculator thingy..lol abit lame la hahas!!

gabriel tan fu yong

gwen lee fang wei

96 %

2daes ago went for 100meters sports dae heats..didnt go for my 100% but did get a 2nd...think during finals i'm gonna die...but something bad happen to her...shouldnt talk abt tt...wads over is over la..cannot turn back time...b4 the 100meters start yc came to lend me his spike shoes a best bro indeed HAHAS!!
after tt yc stay there for training..and i went off with kumar & gang....slack at punggol park after tt wwent home..

yesterdae morning woke up early...think i have never wake up tt early b4 during staurdaes...woke up at 6.30..scared tt i will overslept for bball training...actually is scared cannot see her la haahs^^den went put at 7.05 reach veri nice at 730..saw xinyee so both of us wait for tt princess to arrive LOL...she arrive lyk 2 mins later den me so slack at the coffee shop..she was tired i am tired too so lied down on the table and slp..holding hands together^^ leave at 7.45 den go for training...after training went to cp eat kfc with xinyee jingzhi n gwen...after tt went to best denki play play den the went home i send her to the taxi stand wait for her mother to reach...she so guai lan play with the sand play till almost fall down hahas..so cute la...
after tt her mother reach liao den i go home lor...finish lunch at 2 jiu slp till 5 plus...den kaiwen came play play den go home.....den yc came play play den go home....den already 10 plus liao...at home rot till 12 plus slp..zzz LOL
tts all folks

2008-02-21T22:20:00.002+08:00

i am emoed...

wad u have said has already totally defeat the confidence i have in my future life..

i dunno how to go on...

u used me to compare to the others and how bad i am...

can i still go on?....

u even make me consider on a question...

should i break up with her?.....

but i WONT

2008-02-14T23:16:00.003+08:00

"1 heart for a year 100 hearts for 100 year"

so touched by wad u said...i love u so much tt i can sacrifice anything for u..
valentines dae todae..didnt went for sch oso hahas^^...but meet up with her
to give her the present..was in a hurry for some problem so i didnt have a chance to
present it to her nicely...hope she lyk it..after tt went to st gabriel with kumar bryan zhi hui sharine braudon ayton kelvin go there coz got a big mouth guy and dominik nt happy with him so get down to some 1 0n 1 with him..tt guy is so gay..scream lyk a sissy ahah..after tt went home practise piano and teacher came..get a 14 dollars ang bao..went down to veri nice to find her and send her home..i love the time when i send her..coz it's jus between me n her..after sending her home went back to veri ncie..slack eat dinner den slack awhile more den went home..went to cp arcade try playing skills are still there...took a r34 skyline..mayb should start training on tt car see if it is good anot..play till 9 plus den went home...talk to her on phone awhile..den her mother scold her le so cannot talk so put down le den jiu use com den bath den nw eating while posting at the same time..mayb later jiu slp le..

really hope tt u can go with me to the rock fest..

2008-02-09T01:30:00.000+08:00

why wouldnt u tell me anything????

WHY?

WHY?

WHY?

WHY?

WHY!?!?!?!?

2008-02-02T20:35:00.000+08:00

todae woke up late for pe'0' levels theory lesson...den jiu dun go liao lorden woke up at around 12 plus..jx called me ask me got go down veri nice nt...den i sae yes...den i call kumar they sae meet at veri nice stone table..so i n jx went there...slack around den went to play soccer oso with my skinny jeans hahas^^...den went home..use com...after tt cannot tahan liao too tired jiu slp...den yc came too...woke up around 7 plus...watch slamdunk anime...den use com again...hahas mother bought tons of new year stuff hahas...went down to help her take...den nw going to eat le...

i used to look forward to weekends...
but nw i look forward to weekdaes..
coz i gotta see u...

2008-02-01T22:28:00.000+08:00

shit i broke my promise to her again...i feel so sry...when i took sticks frm my fren...i noe tt she is angry and sad...but i dunno wad to sae...i noe i am at fault..i really dun wanna lose u..coz i really really love u...i swear tt i didnt love a gal as much as u b4...nw my heart has got 3 things first u..2nd bball 3rd my bros...i cant put anything in anymore...i dun mind to lose the other 2 jus for u...coz i really love u..i am nt a sweet talker...i dunno how to show my concern...i swear i will treat u lyk my last girl....i iwsh i could be with u 4eva...are u thinking the same as i do??? i really hope so...
u're my life..
u're my everything...

2008-01-31T22:42:00.000+08:00

yesterdae went to watch singapore slingers match and tts the dae we have been together...
went to watch with gwen xinyee and 2 of her frenz...her fren keep on giving me tips but i jus too humji to do it...lol sometimes i really dunno why i lyk tt so sissy lor...mus be more man abit! LOL den watch half way i ask her can be my stead ma...it's lyk so paiseh for me la...but i am a guy so i have to ask so i mus take the paiseh hahas...den we were both laughing la...den i look at her she laugh again...lol den she sae wan to noe the ans arh?...den she nodded her head hahas..i was so DAMN HAPPY LA!!!!! den after the slingers match we went out trying to find our way...den we walk frm kallang till suntec...lol by the time we reach city hall mrt it's already 11 plus le...while walking i lyk wan hold her hands den dun wan...ai mai ai mai lyk tt...den xin yee fren sae me again la...lyk i so useless lyk tt...den dun care so much le lor...walk den hold her hands lor..at tt time how i wish tt it will be never ending..so tt we can hold hands and walk down the everylasting road...den we went to mrt station sit all the way back to cp lor...den bo bian have to let go coz her father came to fetch her...

anyway i love gwen laaaa~~~

2008-01-29T00:22:00.000+08:00

woke up suddenly in the midnight coz i had dreamt something bad...

this post is dedicated to U

saw u walk off todae...i called u and i can hear tt u're sobbing..i knew tt u are sad...i tired to comfort u...but my surrounding doesnt allow me too...reach home called u again...but i dunno wad to sae...i onli kept saying "dun be sad.." stupid rite?...i noe i ain't no good speaker...i dunno how to comfort u...but talking half way..my fren called me to pass things to him at veri nice so...this is wad i meant by my surrounding doesnt allow me to talk to u...reach home...i called u..u didnt ans...msn didnt reply me...did reply my smses...i begain to worried...but the reply i got frm u is..."i ok le dun wry"
i might nt speak much but deep down inside me...i care alot abt u i concern abt u i'm worried abt u..and i love u alot...at tt moment i jus kept thinking of U & U & U...i jus cant seems to get out of my head...and nw i feel lyk i am being ingnored...i felt emptiness within me...i cant even imagine nt talking to u or smsing u a dae...mayb i will go crazy...

jus lyk wad u sae...
stay close dun go..coz i love u so..

2008-01-21T23:53:00.000+08:00

todae went to sch...quite alot of ppl was suprise tt i didnt wear specs todae...sch is the same la..no need sae haha...walk pass her class...so dao..dun even sae hi lol..after sch meet up with bros...went to void deck to slack...after went to drink...saw this sec 2 girl our sch de...sabo ayton and tell her tt he wans her number..she did give me her number hahas...after went home..while walking saw ncps having match...thought of going in to see...yu zhen they all were there...some girls are calling out to her tt they saw me..i didnt even noe them and they noe me..lol...primary sch standard is...=.=lll borrow a ball to play...finally able to dunk there..but i dun dare hahas..played 1 v 4..hahas i am the onli guy vs 4 girls...they are lyk...diao-.-lllso easily pass them...den 3 nan chaiu high add in so became 4v4 the girls were sianz coz they cant get the ball so all go sit down LOL...den left with 4 guys 2 girls...so i join the girls team..the nan chaiu guys are oso...brrr...after tt went home...eat..den sleep hahas den wake up around 9 plus..eat again den use com lor..den nw posting..tts all...gonna slp^^

i really love u...

2008-01-20T01:14:00.000+08:00

u said...let's wait...

i'll wait for u forever....

2008-01-19T00:26:00.000+08:00

sch per mormal...went to watch todae...wasnt in the team..todae vs sengkang..wtf..lose..expected.. how i wish i can play on the court again...

i'm loving u more n more dae by dae...but i jus dun dare to sae it out..i am jus afraid tt we might drift apart...i wanna stay lyk this for ever..close as ever..but keep tt thing inside my heart was very painful...i dunno if i should tell u anot...u might nt noe its u..but it's U...should i tell u or not..i am crazy abt u...cant live without u every sec...how i wish tt u noe how i feel...and i wish u were thinking the same thing as i do...

1) u're lyk a dream come true
2) jus wanna be with u...
3) girl coz it's plain to see..tt u're the only 1 for me..
4) repeat steps 1 through 3...
5) make u fall in love me ^^
if ever i believe tt my work is done...den i'll start back at one...

2008-01-15T21:35:00.000+08:00

psps yesterdae didnt post..anyway todae... went to cp with jx...he called me early in the morning...den went sch..bought math testbk 16 dollars plus...wtf...sch as boring as ever...but still fun la..math is lyk no kick...haha...mayb for the time being onli la...mayb it will start to get more n more diff la...den todae forget to bring tie for assembly...borrowed frm my yon..den dunno chosse wad elective modelue shit thing la...anyhw choose...den after tt borrow bball frm mr yon..rush home try my new bball shoe...comfortable^^..todae bball damn unlucky -.-...under basket oso can miss...mayb the shoe is still new den cannot adapt to it ba...but still ok la..play till 6 plus...reach home saw yc at downstairs..talk awhile...den went home...eat awhile den use com..went to bath came out den nw postnig again..

knnbpcb..tt time during training.. still ask me wan wad number...den i n qun liang choose the same number...u still sae compete free throw..inner will get the number...cb...i win liao den u sae the jeresy i take...nw u gave it to qun liang...and i am nt even in the main 12...wtf!!fck u man...wad a liar...cb...i gonna make u regret tt u dun put me down to play...tml training watch out...knn..as a coach oso break promise...how a player will look up to his coach as???...big time liar...wadeva...mr yon comfort me...i oso cant sae anything...afterall i didnt went for the hols training...

once again GAN NI NA BU CHAO CHEE BYEE FCK U _l_ !!!!!

2008-01-13T23:05:00.000+08:00

lol almost forget to post haha...anyway todae woke up quite early...around 11 plus coz yc brother came to my house to wake him up =.=lll...den i continue to slp la...till around 12 plus woke up use com..chat with gwen... lol for quite long la...den after tt play audi with her lyk 2 games onli lol...den went out to eat with yc...no money eat den he treat me...after tt went home slack den watch tv...den slp again...LOL den at 4 my mother came back yc woke up and i continue to slp lol...den 5 plus got waken up tt stupid thunder...damn loud la...den it's lyk...sianz...wake up liao...no mood to slp lol...den play com lor...den actually wan go buy shoe den mother sae dun wan la...next time den buy...WTF LA!!....sianz 1/2...den do nth at home lor...view friendster,ppl's blog den utubing....den eat watch tv...den nw posting lor...tts all folks hahas...
i swear i will become a better player...TTS 4 SURE
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u dun understand me...forget it...i am over u...

2008-01-12T23:54:00.000+08:00

todae training at 8...suppose to wake up at 7 but wake up at 7.15-.-...manage to get out of home at 7.35 and reach sch at 7.55...luckily wasnt late...training was as usual...do some drills..den some stratergies and i am alwaes at the side lines..watching them play...kinda regret tt i didnt go for training during the hols...haiz...after training...coach mentioned the starting 5...dominic,larry,kunleng,yichuan and zhao kiat...den i was lyk..totally disappointed..went den went to borrow 1 ball frm mr yon...he can see tt i am disappointed..so he asked me to sit down and talk to me...he siad tt he can see tt i am very sad n disapponinted and sad la...he sae i am a wasted asset to the sch...den sae actually i drop to n/a he was very happy coz i can play for the sch for another year...he also sae tt coach wans me to learn frm this lesson and to become a better player...becoz of attendence tt i didnt go for the hols training...so i am nt in the main 5...mayb this is my consequences...after much talking...he shook my head and sae..go train harder and prove every1 wrong...tts y i went to borrow a ball and go skcc play...train on my shooting...play 3on3 game...was super on form...macham lebron james...except tt i cannot dunk...den went home whole body feel very weak...lyk jelly jelly de...den eat some bread...coz whole dae didnt eat...den go bath den slp liao..5 plus woke up...den go popo house...made contact lense already...next wed can sart trying...den eat 1 packet of mix vegetable rice and 1 packet of mince pork noodle...lol damn hungry larh..den went home..kitchen light spoil le...den i change lor...den talk to frenz on msn...den nw nth jiu post lor...tomolo morning going to play again...i gonna train back and prove every1 wrong...WRONG!!! I DUN WANNA LOSE!!!!
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these few daes didnt talk to u...heart pain...coz i couldnt let u noe...

2008-01-12T00:24:00.000+08:00

todae morning eat muffins hahas...went to sch slack slack slack den tt fcking china prostitute teacher ask me to copy 1 whole chapter for her coz i pon her lesson...den she sae actually i need to write 2 coz ayton got reason to pon saeing tt he "stomachache"...=.=lll fck care her la copy once den give her take it or leave it lor...knn...den 12.30 off sch...go slack with a big bunch of frenz...as usual kumar ayton braudon n bryan went to slack at saircase...after tt jiu go home changed n go cp meet jun xian...go arcade den slack den go back arcade...after tt jun xian went for his npcc cca..i went home...use com den damn tired slp lor...till 7 plus...den 8 plus went down play bball den shoe spoil =.=lllmake me come back to home to change nother bball show again...den meet both dawns both tan and lin....den play bball with some china guys...they aint tt good either...after tt they went home...dawn tan went home too...den left with me and dawn nia...den no ppl wo jiu train my shooting lor...since so long never play liao..skills mus have drop till siao...luckily got train back alittle...got feel back...made some 3 points and long mid-range...tomolo gonna train again...mus train till near perfect hahas...after tt at 10 lights close le...den play with dawns dog...abit sianz la...but okok la...got a living thing beside u...at least wont feel so sianz la...den lie down on the floor see stars while listening to timberland's song 'apologize' den slack till 10.35 lyk tt jiu go back to 7-11 meet yc lor...den back home eat den nw posting lor...later bath liao mus slp le...tomolo morning still got training...
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nt gonna post abt her le...mian de ppl keep asking me....den anyhow sae...wtf..

2008-01-10T21:50:00.000+08:00

overall...todae wasnt aq good dae for me...woke up as early as ever in 6 am... pack back brush teeth den jiu go sch liao..almost every morning never eat anything...hungry dao xi guan liao...sch was boring la...but fun...den bought 1 pack frm taufik...i mean kup money with many others la...denkeep at kumar there...chi lesson(this is the thing tt makes my dae fck up...later will link to it)...initially was pretty happy tt we got out the class...slack at 5th floor bio lab stiarcase there...till recess time..recess same thing eat and chat...den eng lesson slp...den kena caught den slp again...math lesson slp...caught by mr yon sianz...den jiu wake up lor...coz he is a teacher tt is closer to me..oh ya...had photo taking todae for i/c de..hope it looks good...qiu zhen act 1 ah beng face haha!!den the photographer ask him to put his head straight den he kepp moving left & right den the photographer go adjust his head hahas!!den larry take photo he aum chio den lyk 1 funny face la...den last lesson had pe 'o' theory..tts the first theory lesson i had in pe'o' dunno wad isit all abt..all the question are lyk so new to me...but kinda interesting...mr goh ..as entertaining as ever...never gets bored in his class...den went to slack with ayton zhi hui kumar ahmad n sharien den i think some1 took photo of us...so quickly went off den i go home..didnt touch my piano lyk whole 2 months...the hw tt my teacher gave me i didnt do at all...didnt practise too...so had practise for lyk 2-3 hours overall was okok la...noe alittle bit..mother did cook den eat after lunch slp till 7 plus teacher still haven come...he came around 7.45 supposingly to come at 7 den its lyk the lesson ended at 9...wtf..den come out mother ask me
"never go sch arh?"
i was lyk wtf o.O??
"ur chi teacher call me sae u never attend her class"
wtf lor...china chickens are alwaes lyk tt..totally hate them...fckers china prostitute..
den still act lyk police lyk tt..call ayton ask him y never go her class den call me...in the end sae wad we both gave diff reason...watch too much china movie liao izzit...think wad taking statement arh...knn pcb den nw si bei dulan arh...den nw posting le lor...later going to eat again...
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sianz sia...i didnt eally expect tt i will really love u lor...come to think of it...it's impossible la..u n him is lyk..hardcore couples liao la...totally dun have me in ur eyes le lor...it's shit man...i dun lyk this...i cant sae to any1 coz if any1 noes this..i and the guy will be lyk enemys...and we are alwaes together so i cant let any1 noes...neither can i let u noe...coz if i let u noe..ur cca members will start spreading...sure will spread to him de...its so tough man...keep this to myself..the first time i saw u..i thought tt i wouldnt lyk u coz for dunno wadeva reason...but it's lyk...the more i see u the more i have feelings for u...and now is lyk i am seeing u more oftenly...i dunno how am i gonna going on lyk this...i might go crazy...i noe i am nt the type of guy u lyk..mayb i will jus have to wait till i the feelings fade...but hw long would it be???hw tough would it be?? can i take it?....

2008-01-09T15:50:00.000+08:00

todae morning overslept...was suppose to wake up at 6 but slept till 6.40 lol...den wake up brush teeth had nth for breakfast den went for bball training....reach there shoot some balls...all air ball...skills really gone...really need to train back le...running oso slower by alot...den after tt too hungry bo bian bought a burger and eat...half way eating den qiu zhen said coach ask us to run 2km...wtf...1st round was damn tiring but after tt jiu nt tired le...its really mind over body...i was constenly telling my self to chse up with others and i did so...but when i stop..its lyk feeling to fall onto the ground le hahas but didnt la...den went back to the court there was sec 1 basketball trials so didnt learn a fcking thing...den did some basic drills..shoot 3 point free throws...den rest den hd a 3 on 3 game..the floor had elgae on it plus the florr is wet so i keep falling down...in the end onli win 1 game...if the floor wasnt wet..i thini we could have win much more...after the game the trial also jus ended..den coach ask us wad jersey number we wan...he asked quite a few person..den i thought tt i wont get asked...surprisely he asked me..this shows tt at least i am in the team..i choose number 8 den qun liang choose the same...so we had a free throw competition winner gets the number..3 balls n i onli scored 1...haiz...this is how much i have deproved...normally i can at least make 2/3...luckily qun liang had the same...so we had sudden death...first 1 to score wins..and i win!!! so i manage to secure number 8...for 5 years i have beem using 8...so how can i let it go so easily HAHA!!...den go for lesson..it was as boring as ever..but had fun in class...after sch went to slack with bros den nw reach home liao lor...nw going to do some sch work stuf....post again at night...

till tml den!!! or mayb night =.=lll

2008-01-08T22:11:00.000+08:00

agghey!!!jus change my blogskin kinda lyk it very much...pretty cool and rare i can sae...so i chose it...anyway todae sch was as fun as ever...slept for 1 hour during elementary math tt teacher totally sianz....i and shacrien slp hahas...den after sch went to cp to eat with bryan larry boo hui kelvin carina & meiyi at kfc after tt rush back home to change den rush back to sch...mayb i SLACK too much liao la...stamina totally drop lyk siao when warming up doing suicide totally cannot run...the friendly match against nchs start...i was'nt in the main 5...coz didnt go for hols training...so mayb kena kick out...sianz...i think overall i onli played 10 mins in the game...after the game..lots of conflicts la..i oso dunno long long long story...went to veri nice coffee shop...could see the fire in his eyes LOL DAMN DULAN...den wen to SLACK with kumar shacrien kelvin bryan n dom(kumar's cousin)...after walk back to cp saw yc fren..sit there slck slack again till 7 plus walk home lor...reach home bath le...now posting lor...

tml again!!!^^

2007-12-27T03:15:00.000+08:00

yo!~~...damn long never post le...should be around 2 months le la...lol lazy post ma...anyway its so fast...sch is reopening soon...sad...wish i dun need to go to sch...haiz haiz...todae sisnt slp went to gym with cousin...after gym go swim...den go his house play ps3 2k8...damn nice lor...den go back home drop straight to bed lol...den mother force me to wake up coz going to buy clothes for new year but u noe...not necessary to wear it during chinese new year onli ...i can wear it now LOL!!!...den SLP AGAIN!!!hahas denuntill 12 am plus den wake up nw posting...haha shall try to post more next time..^^

2007-10-08T18:00:00.000+08:00

hmm..last sat wrk for 8 hrs legs damn fcking pain...den onli allow q10 mins break WTF...=.=lllden go home around 12 plus le...play game till 3 plus den slp..next morning woke up around 10.20am...den chiong my math tuition hw...coz 11.30 have tuition le..onli manage to do some den tired jiu dun do le...den after tt whole dae at home sianz DAO~~....den 9 plus go 308 with yc to eat honey dew sago...den bought some choco mint den slack at playground awhile den jiu go home le...den play ps2 awhile jiu slp le..den todae morning woke up damn tired...but cannot dun go sch so bo bian....try new way of spiking my hair..ppl sae tt it is nicer this way so mayb i shall stick to tt way...but not much difference though...in class geo n eng teacher never come...almost half of the dae playing a fool totally heck care those fcking relieve teachers...den during math class my frens fighting(jus playing those kind) one of my fren fall den damn funny la den of coz laugh la..knn the teacher come gan me ccb lim pei kp him back lol coz didnt do anything ma jus laugh den he gan me den i gan him back he lan lan den ask me go out of clas..lol i give him ap HAHAS...recess time do nth totally slacking something tt i and my fren found out abt sch...THE SCH IS A PRISON...THE CLASS IS THE CELL..A BIG 1 TT CAN CONTAIN ABT 40 PPL AND THE TEACHER OFFICE ARE THE OFFICERS...hahas lol lame shit la...den after recess go back class...jaron n zhi hui they all connect the straws from 2nd floor to 1st floor den put into water bottle in the end cant suck any water up LOL...den ok chinese class slack...info skills class slack...sci class slakc...den finish sch liao..lol to me go sch..its lyk going to slack lyk tt lol...den go skcc play bball awhile jiu go home le..den continue my ps2 de game hahas^^v den finish le nw jiu come back posting lor...mayb at night going to eat honey dew sago with yc again hahas^^

BROS 4 LIFE!~~

2007-10-05T11:47:00.001+08:00

yo!~hahas..wed chinese paper 1&2 over le^^ thursdae eng paper 1 oso over...hahas hope tt exam faster over...so todae is fridae haha..lame=.=lll woke up earlyin the morning preparing to go sch den suddenly felt a super duper pain in my stomach so went to the toilet...it was abt 6.54...by right should leave the house at 7 but i shit till 7.18 u see so i didnt go sch todae^^v but after tt jiu not pain liao lol dunno y...so it was a slack dae for me^^so play ps2 after play com den play ps2 nw play back com hahas hahas den bro told me tt i dun have to wrk todae...dunno y lol mayb the manager dun lyk me la hu cares???lol den later around 1 plus need to go sch give the financial assitance de form....after tt go poly clinic take mc....dun feel lyk going sia...dun need to take de lor....but mother insist haiz...waddeva la...den mayb around 3 jiu go play bball ba..so damn long never play le...till here ba..later at night den post^^

2007-10-05T09:28:00.000+08:00

blah...testing... ............. ...... ..

2007-10-02T21:02:00.000+08:00

hahs long time no post le...lets post abt this few daes ba...i have been wrking since last fridae till sundae..quite tiring la but still need the $$$...mondae lesson was as per normal slack n slack nothing to do slp..till around 12 plus ppl called me...shant talk abt the useless thing...den after sch went to canteen wait for suphakit to go gym but his class kena detention =.=....den sit there wait and wait den vp walk pass and go into toilet den i was lyk phew...didnt catch my hair...den i talk to wenjie den suddenly some1 pulled my layer den OMG!~~~~~he caughtmy hair...
"basketballers can have thier hair long arh?? i wan to see it cut tomolo arhz or i take the sissors to cut it for u tomolo" with tt friendly smile of his...haha i kinda lyk him coz he is very friendly as a vp unlike our principal....always tt jiao bin...den wait so long le suphakit still haven come jiu go play bball saw brian jiu play with him den yi chuan join in went 1 on 1 with him 3ball wins the game...he lead 2-0 in the end become 2-3...hahas bball seriously drop...i swear i got to get back my skill....den suphakit came den jiu go rest a while at canteen with rachel they all....den off we go to cp to change money coz kit(short form for suphakit) need to buy protien shake....well wadeva den went to wait for bus already 3 plus...reach hougang gym around 4 le...jus nice called billy n brian came... went to do incline and decline bench press...currently can push 37.5 kg for both...target push 40.....den do some biceps jiu go home le coz do pretty much sets on the chest....go home slp den study den slp again....den todae morning woke up late den change shirt but forgot to bring name tag and sch badge....damn en mus buy a fcking badge tt coz 1.50...go back class..as usual slack...den play la...den play with jing zhi accidentally hit her throat..sry sry lol...den after sch went to play bball jiu go home slp lyk pig..nw wake up study while posting hahas...tts all fokes

2007-09-26T23:48:00.000+08:00

no matter how hard i try u juz dun lyk wad i am doing...i am not those kinda stick to the assement bk and study for 3 or 4 hours kid....i already tried my best working at least 4 sums of math everydae but she is jus not happy with me....wad can do??scolding me all dae long....is she really my.....i wonder if i am jus a kid tt was pick up in the rubbish bin.....i cant even do the things tt i lyk...i cant play basketball...cant do any sports tt i lyk....is it true tt i have to stay indoors 24 hours when it exam time???cant even go out for a few hours???...i didnt go out and doinghit out there..i jus finish wad i wanna do and i'll go back home cant i have tt????todae do 4 math question still...she is not happy...came back home lock the door...dun even let me have my nath...till 11 plus she came out saw me using com....and accuse me saying tt i jus came back and start all the scolding...i have my bath awhile later came out and ask wheres my phone..she took it out frm her pillow and throw to the floor...and den came out saying tt she sisnt did tt on purpose...so i went out slam the door...den she scold me for slamming it...come on la..she have slam it for more than millions times more den i do k??...wadeva i do u jus dun lyk...frm todae onwards...i'll treat myself as ONE..not a family anymore....

i am jus a kid tt u pick it up in the rubbish bin....

2007-09-13T23:56:00.000+08:00

ahah i noe hw long i never update my blog le..lol lazy ma..psps frm nw on i will try to update everydae^^ anw not to forget..this post is some1 request de!^^ aha..so lets start with todae ba...todae never go sch coz sick den around 9:45 am...my grandfather brought me to the clinic to visit the toopid doc...get myself an mc juz to shut tt fcking teachers mouth...well...i am really sick luhh~...usually i dun give a damn la...too tired jiu overslp lo..den go home take medcine den feel kinda tired jiu slp till 4 plus when my mother bought food for me to eat...after tt play ps2 den jiu get my self ready to go interview for job but so damn fcking suay the toopid manager ask me to come again tomolo haiz...waste my time...den go arcade have a game of max tune...skill drop drastically corners tt should be cleared around 265 km/h i cleared it at 250 km/h=.=...after i earned $$$ i mus go back to train le...denafter tt go 308 eat ice kachang and fried rice jiu go back home nw posting lo den after posting mus go slp le!!!

NITEZ!!

2007-09-02T22:07:00.000+08:00

recently i did have good daes and bad daes...ahah..lets hope for a better tomolo ba...todae woke up early in the morning to play bball with cousin at kovan cc..after awhile decide to ask the the community club ppl if i can join the kovan csc basketball team den they ask me to leave my name and contact number down...after tt go eat mac den meet up with dear...actually go home wanna study de...but i am tooooooo tired so went to slp HAHA!!! den deasr pei me slp oso after tt she went home den i slp till around 7 den woke up have my dinner den my tuition teacher came and after my math tuition and here i am posting....ahah!...tts all fokes^^

2007-08-29T16:52:00.000+08:00

long time no post liao...ppl wans me to update ma so wo jiu update lo...hmmm lets start woth todae la...todae not a good dae for me manz...morning almost overslept for bball again have to take cab...haiz.. dun lyk life to be so rush..i lyk it to be slow...but in singapore quite impossible for a slow life unless u have already retire when tt time comes..u gonna die liao....cannot play eanything =.=lll den after tt start lesson everything was okayden reccess time..she keep looking at me..macham wanna seduce me lyk tt lol too bad.TOO LATE!!! haha^^ den play in reccess play till play chicken chop anyhow throw den kena my shirt till so dirty...fck luhh~~den after tt go back class slp through out the math lesson...but at least listen for the last 15 mins den i noe the lesson abit...later jiu gonna read up on it le..den after tt chinese lesson oso didnt teach much onli give back worksheet den file them back den after tt so suay lo my fren accidentally throw the marker at me when he was aimming at another fren...the first thing of coz will angry rite...den he sae sry den i dun wanna chase the matter liao...den he gan me back wa lao eh!~~~ccb gan angry sia...aiya he is counted as 1 of my best classmate in class la so dun wanna talk about it le la...he wan angry den let him be la...i dun give a damn la..

shallendhere

2007-08-15T21:44:00.000+08:00

sry guys i haven been busy this few daes so didnt update my blog...we have been losing our bball matches..national levels basketball ain't easy man..really tough...we left with jurong and deyi sec...if we win this 2 team we r into the national top4...but unfortunately i sprain my ankle..fck man...at this point of time...i am really stupid...love is patien tts wad i learn frm the sexuality education...some love are worth to wait for...but for mine hahs....everytime i lyk a girl its lyk fighting a meant to be lost battle....this time round...i lyk a gal i dun even dare to tell ehr...i juz keep it in my heartbut i juz wanna tell her tt i lyk her...

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2007-08-04T00:12:00.000+08:00

apologies for not posting for somedae yea?...last yesterdae juz had a match with kranji sec...score is 78-48..though its a big lead but the first quauter was a very close match...i suppose they dun have much stamina den as and they onli depend on 1 person the score whereas any1 in northvista can score so i think tts why we won...but it ain't a good game for me...some1 knee my leg muscle...damn fck...den todae training so suay finger kena sprain...wa lao...i an really suay sia...after all todae was juz a fine dae...REAL FINE...ohya...i juz got my gatsby moving rubber hahas^^its was ok not bad^^
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wheres my girl????i havent got her...sobz..="(

2007-07-24T19:52:00.000+08:00

saem old thang...wake up early in the morning ....i dunno y but i have this stupid attitude..whenever i woke up in the morning my mood is damn fcking bad,...den after jiu ok liao...funny rites?!? hahas!aight..todae go sch...after recess i i listen to mp3 all the way..lol the lesson was kinda too boring luhh...tts y..after sch go skcc nobody was there so take out my geo text to revise for my test next week,....few mins later ppl came den started playing..after a while larry bryan jackie came..so we play 4 on 4 with the others...obviously we lost coz those guy in skcc are juz way too strong for us...den slack awhile den walk to compass buy waffer den sit down slack awhile...while slacking we talk abt stragies on hw to defend presbyterian high..but i think still too diff...we will still play out best though...
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juz a simple call and i hear ur voice...i was overjoy..coz..ya noe..u dun alwaes pick up the phone..so u pick up todae tts y i am happy...actually wanna ask u got basketball nia...not ask u out to play ball..LOL aight aight..tts all...wish me all the best ba..hope i can bring back the trophy tomolo...hope so ba...of coz i will never forget my bro...
yuen chai...hahas^^